I was very hormonal yesterday. I just couldn't get passed it. I think that when Brie is about to go on her period her body releases some kind of pheremone that really messes with me. I get much more aggressive as if I am having an overload of testosterone. Definitely had issues. So much so I had to go outside for a while and clean up around the yard and garage putting out all kinds of trash. She sent me flowers during the day, but they didn't get here until 7:00 pm. Still what a great thing. It's a first and I really loved it.
Brie is off with what should be her final interview Friday. She is going to fly in an out of Oakland in a span of 5 hours. After tha they will either make an offer or they won't. They say they have another candidate that already lives in Virginia so she will really have to impress them to make them think the relocation cost is worth it. I hope she understands that if they decide to pass I really don't think it will have anything to do with her. It will just be the reality of relocating someone across country.
I got my second PD-F1007 (my 300+1 CD players) out of the shop on Friday. It had been there since the end of June 2002. I finally get home and guess what. It doesn't work right. It can't get through the first few tracks of any CD I put in it and not skip back to the previous song. Very frustrating. I paid $175 to have it fixed. They had to replace the laser and the spindle motor and it still isn't working right. I really hope I didn't buy a lemon and there will be no cost effective way to fix it. It sure would be a waste of a lot of money.
1. What is one thing you don't like about your body?
My chin. I can handle the spare tire I carry because I know that I can get rid of that on my own, but I have an under-developed bottom jaw that I just deplore. Luckily I can easily grow a goatee and that is very successful at hiding the problem.
2. What are two things you love about your body?
hmmm I'm very happy with everything from the hips down to my toes.
3. What are three things you want to change about your home?
If I wasn't renting (or at least aware that I am going to move. I would first and foremost change the wall color, I hate white walls. To me it's a sign of a cold demeanor and uptightness. (is that even a word?)
4. What are four books you want to read this year?
Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix!! I just can't wait. That's it really, I'm not much of a book person.
5. What are five promises you have kept to yourself?
The only promise I make to myself is to always strive to be a better person. I have lived up to that. Everyday I try to be aware of who I am and where I really need to grow as a person and I try my best to change. That encompasses a lot because I have quite a few shortcoming. Of course, one of them is lack of selfconfidence. :)
Still no word on Virginia, and it's been one whole day!! LOL Actually they told Brie we probably wouldn't hear from them until Thursday anyway.
One thought on my mind a lot today ... dogs ... how do I get George and Emma across the country if we move? I can't imagine how stressful it would be to fly a 115 lb. Great Pyrenees and an 80 lb. Golden Retriever across the country. I kind of fantasize about driving them across the country, but that would take a long time and after Oklahoma, which I think might be going out of my way, I would have no where to stay so I'd be all by myself driving across a country I've never seen. Part of me thinks that would be great, but the other part has seen Deliverance and says be very wary. Oh well, that really is putting the cart before the horse, so I'm not going to worry about it.
My other concern is Brie's car. I really don't want to take her Civic with us (or even keep it now), it's just not practical. It's great right now because Brie drives about 150 miles a day and it's so great on gas, but we can't actually fit our family in it. A few months ago we had to put the Durango in the shop and we couldn't actually fit both car seats, Sebastian, and us in the car at the same time. Madeline ended up sitting kind of sideways it was not fun or safe. We desperately need a bigger car, like another SUV, if we are going to live in a place where it's known to snow a little and rain a lot. However, we still haven't recovered from what happened last year so there is no way we can get a loan, and until we get settled somewhere else it's not really feasible to make car payments anyway. I keep waiting for life to provide a way. So we will see.
I'm trying to get back into the habit of making regualr posts. It would appear that some people actually do read this on a regular basis. My thanks go out to Cindi who keeps posting comments, which encourages me to write more.
So Brie tells me she checks my blog almost everyday to see if I've posted, something I haven't done in a while even with all that has been happening in our lives. There is actualy a reason for that. I've not wanted to post my thoughts on everything because it's all been so theorhetical. Now we are about as close as we can be from having something tangible happen I feel like it's the time to discuss.
What is this all about? Well ... moving to the east coast. Today Brie had 8 hours of interviews with a company in Virginia and she feels things went extremely well, she gave it a 9 out of 10. Brie and I have always seen eye to eye on the important issues in life and we both agree that our family (she and I and the kids) are first priority. Unfortunately, living here in San Diego has not been a great experience for our family. The things we moved here for did not come to fruition. Sometimes it feels like it's been a 3 year slide backwards. To correct that we began looking at moving elsewhere.
I grew up here in California, I have lived here my whole life and I think now is the time to go out and experience other areas, while the kids are young and they are more flexible. Virginia seems like as good an area as any. At first we had thoughts about the north east, but the more I thought about that the less I liked the idea of 120 inches of snow a year. What I want is quite simple; a good job market, great schools, and a reasonable cost of living matched with way of life. I have to believe that if I can find those I can build a great lifestyle for my family and myself. I have learned so much in the last few years, mostly to just let life come at me one day at a time and make plans, but don't let those plans override actually living life. So what will happen will happen, but I think Virginia could be a amazing experience for all of us and I open to the opportunity if it comes to fruition, but I won't sacrifice what is important to me just to move.